Maternal Transformations

Years after becoming a mother in difficult circumstances Paula started to explore maternal subjectivity, her own and others. She was particularly interested in the relation between maternity and art and how these might be conceptualised as 'encounters' that may have transformative impact. Part of the practice of 'working-through' of her own troubled maternity involved drawing. She drew every day for a year – tiny black-ink scrawly drawings held in a series of small lined notebooks. The compulsion to do this ritualistic daily practice emanated from a desire to work-through some of the difficult senses, feelings, emotions, thoughts she had that were part of, or which she associated with her maternity. The drawings were concerned with exploring those parts of my maternity that she could not access in the writing of others or by writing myself or in the art of others – the pain she experienced that she thought was her own.